Hidup mulia

Tomorrow i’ll be having my clinical exam for obstetric posting.. Before i go further just wanna warn you all  that my language is going to be rojak coz i just finish my speed study for tomorrow exam.. plan to sleep after this and weak up early tomorrow.. England will play againts serbia montenegro at 12 … it would be nice to watch but better sleep lah .. got to be clear on my priority .. tapi bleh plak tulih blog memalam nih kan .. saje lepas tensen kononnya .. 

Anyway, for the past 5 weeks i’ve been seen lots of delivery and diseases related to pregnancy.. some got admitted due to post date pregnancy, some got bleeding trough her vagina, some got hypertension during delivery, some got anemia due to poor diet intake and memacamla .. so we need to help these mother so that they can go into labour and deliver her baby.. like i said before, our job is to provide good out come of the pregnancy …

Semalam aku oncall ngan shangkeree sampai pukul 10 .. we were in the operation theater .. ade seorang ibu nih dia punya tali pusat tercabut masa kita cuba nak keluarkan uri(placenta) dia. Aku ngan shank jumpa dia kat dalam labour room then kitaorg follow dia naik OT kat tingkat 3. Bincang2 sikit ngan Dr. Leong dan Dr. Aaron then we wait for the anesteologist to insert epidural to numb the lower part of the patient… Mula2 aku ingat it’s goin to be a short procedure .. it is actually .. cumanya masa anesthetis to nak masukkan epidural kat spinal cord patient tuh which is between L4 and L5 kalau tak silap aku,, suddenly blood pressure akak tuh drop to 51/22 mmHg (normal bp 120/80mmHg) .. it’s not so good because she can die due to insufficient blood supply to vital organ like brain, heart, kidney and adrenal gland .. because of that we cant continue giving her anasthesia and have to stabilize her by blood transfusion.. a pine of blood already been transfuse tapi bp akak nih masih tak naik .. dalam sibuk2 tuh the second blood cannot be given to her sebab surat kebenaran pemindahan darah tak ditemui .. Oh my god .. benda nih jadi kat depan mata aku .. Dr. anes tuh repeatedly suruh prepare blood tuh tapi sister OT insisted of getting the consent letter first .. there are 2 issue which arise here .. both are medicolegal issue .. to give or not to give .. dengan kebijaksanaan dr anes tuh, after calling her consultant, bp patient tuh dapat di naikkan tanpa perlu blood transfusion .. she did mention that the bp wont remain high very long .. so blood transfusion must be done eventually .. the sister incharge did prepare the blood but i didn’t see any second blood transfusion .. we manage to put into sleep and Dr. Leong buat manual removal of placenta untuk keluarkan uri yg tertinggal kat dalam tuh …  it ended shortly afterward ..

Terlintas dalam kepala aku masa kat dalam OT tadi, betapa seorang ibu bersambung nyawa demi melahirkan seorang anak.. akak tadi bole mati kalau tiada tindakan pantas dilakukan untuk menyelamatkan nyawanya …

On seperate occasion pulak Kat ward aku, ada seorang pesakit yang mengalami tekanan jiwa selepas kematian anaknya.. Sekarang nih dia mengandung lagi dan dimasukkan ke ward sebab komplikasi kandungannya.. anak dalam kandungannya didapati menghidap kecacatan tulang belakang..

Kandungan ni pun hasil perkahwinan dia ngan suami kedua .. masa mula2 aku tak sedar dia pessakit mental sampai satu hari masa ward round ngan dr krishna, akak nih buat perangai gile dia.. then masa hari dia dijadualkan untuk pembedahan c-section dia lari ke hujung ward melaung-laung sampai hentak2 kepala kat pintu ward.. kesian dia, dia tak sedar ape yg berlaku sebanrnya … On daily bases, setiap kali aku pintas katil dia, dia pasti akan tegur aku .. ape yang aku bole buat hanya senyum balik dan balas sapaan dia ..

selamat hari ibu untuk semua ibu dan bakal ibu .. and mama i love you so much …   

It’s really something if we think that people are watching us all the time, but it’s nothing if we feel that nobody care about what we do.. The thing is we will never really sure unless what we do have some impact to other people life or atleast make people treat us differently, either better or worse.

This is the true fact about life. I should know better considering my involvement in campus politics when I was in UM. Being public figure means ur personal life is everyone’s business.. And due to that, you can never have a personal life and do what ever you want. Everything you do must meet what the public demand you to do or decide. Difficult doesn’t it. Feel like trap in the world that you build.

In a society, everything is everyone business.. It’s actually a good system to make us diciplin and obey the cultural norm. It’s just that it hurts when you were the one being talk about .. It creates some level of stress, and make things more complicated for you to solve. Thats why controlling information is very important. Knowing when to open ur mouth and to who, is important.. Especially sensitive issue like race, religion and relationship..

Everytime we talk, we either confronting our fren, enemy or an imposter. This is something we can never really tell hence problem starts when we talk to the wrong people..  You guys probably wonder why am i writing on this issue..

Well sometimes common issue need to be raised, cause we tend to forget things we dont recall ..